A New Day

"Why try to fit in when you're a stand out" ~ Joe Budden

Have you ever had one of those days where you just feel like "damn, today is the beginning of something new" ?
I had one of those today, an epiphany, if you will.

For years I've tried to work out my own problems and become that dude that everyone loves. Throughout all of this I've realized that isn't really what I want. I don't want to be the guy that gets shown love by many but isn't really loved by any.

Maybe your sitting there right now like "duh, you a stupid motherfucker for realizing this now". But I don't think some of you yourselves have either. Why should I try to fit in and do what everyone else is doing?

I've always known I was different from the majority of kids these days. Not more booksmart but more wise. Not more creative but more thoughtful. Not more pimp but more caring. And I think at this point I've realized I need to say fuck what you think and do me. I don't give a shit if you think I'm soft cuz I care for a girl, or you think I'm "emo" cuz I have some issues.

Today was the day where it really hit me like, "I want to turn my life around, I'm gonna stop letting life take me on a ride and start taking my life where I want it to go". I have talent in writing, in the form of poetry over notes especially (rap for you dumb hoes). I'm a unique individual who has alot of traits that people like but don't seem to be able to find. And I'm tired of sitting and complaining about how shit sucks, so I'm going to do something about it.

I'm no longer going to be that guy that sits around waiting.

"Wait for your whole life and come to realize all your waiting is for your time to be up" ~ me

Out to go get my life right,
Blue aka 1 Breath

*** Sidenote - Sorry if this wasn't as introspective or life lesson infused as usual, but I just thought I would throw this down for my lack of blogs. Maddchild gotta stop posting two a day, I can't keep up with that. But I'll hit you with some nice thought out ish in the next few days.